March 20th, 2009-->Mind Fucked

I feel so numb and mind fucked today. I stayed up all night because I was worried sick about my cat Khaos who was at the vet because for a solid week he didn't eat, drink, shit, or groom himself and has spent most of his time in the bath tub...and of course yesterday was the 19th of all dates WHY the 19th??? I have hated the number 19 ever since I read the Dark Tower series written by Stephen King...where repeatedly he talks about when things"go 19" in other words when everything turns to shit and you get this "i know something bad is about to happen" kind of feeling in the pit of your stomach...after I got home from leaving Khaos at the vet and after I found out he has a 50/50% chance of living...I came home and checked my e-mails only to find that my child-hood pet Barney..of 19 years passed away...and I found out on the 19th...and then stayed up all night and found out that my Grandpa has prostate cancer....what a fucking mind fuck...seriously this is way too much for me to wrap my brain around and still keep my sanity and work on keeping my schedule of a 101 things to do to get my kids outta foster care and now we can add to the list of shit to do and add "give CAT his medications" just fucking peachy....last week on the 9th me and my BF broke up we had been together for 9 months and I moved him out of my apartment and took him off the lease...only to somewhat reconcile a week later...i have GOT to get my head outta my ass seriously...and to make matters worse I got a friend of mine's EX-GF writing me e-mails and accusing me of fucking her X man...wtf??? I don't have time for that trivial BS DRAMA go save it for yo momma or Barack Obama or ANYONE other than ME!!!! Seriously!!!!